Because of the looming storm yesterday, I made a run into town to make sure we were stocked up on provisions just in case we were stuck here for a few days. Its not something that is unheard of in Vermont, in fact it usually happens at least once during the course of our long winters. While I was standing in line to check out, I noticed the local paper sitting on the counter, and the headline that read :"Sutton's students start vacation early; Mold closes school until at least Jan. 5th". As I read through the article I felt a couple of different emotions course through my body. One was relief; relief that my children were away from that school and their issues. Relief that I am not one of the parents who has to scramble to find childcare for their kids for the next 3 weeks or more. Relief that I have the opportunity to be able to teach my children the things that they need to know from the comfort of our own home. And definite relief that I was not one of the parents who walked into the school a couple of weeks ago and was immediately assaulted by a horrific smell and then had to go to the office and ask what said smell was...and then have to go home..and wonder if it was actually going to be investigated, and if whatever it was was dangerous to my child. If you haven't read my issues with this school, let me just tell you that communication is not one of their strong points.
The other emotion I felt was pure anger. I suppose it was dredged up from hard feelings that happend last year...but I have to wonder...did the mold have something to do with affecting Zephryn's behavior? And if it did...how DARE those people make him and my entire family feel like it was all our fault that he has issues, and how dare they just brush him aside like he never mattered. OK, I know my kid isn't perfect, I know he has sensory issues, he always has, but the fact that his behavior at that school was so unlike any behavior we had ever seen makes me wonder. He had always been the type that when he got overwhelmed or stressed he would withdraw into himself. But starting in the first grade he started lashing out...only at school. They looked at me like I was crazy when I told them he had never attacked me at home, or freaked out like he did at school. When they sent him to Cornerstone in St. Johnsbury, the administration there told Mike and I that they didn't see the kinds of behaviors that Sutton reported seeing..and while he was there he was an exemplary student. When they sent him back to Sutton, he did really well for a month, then when they took his para educator away and he started slipping back into the bad behavior, and they once again sent him back to Cornerstone where he, once again, turned around and became a responsible member of the school. Maybe I'm just looking for a scapegoat because I don't want to have to have all the blame laying in my lap, or maybe I'm looking for something I can fix, I'm not sure, but it just seems odd to me.
It's all speculation. And I know it's me that's holding on to this anger, and I need to let it go. I really just need to concentrate on the fact that all of my children are thriving here, they are happy and learning and I don't have to worry about all the things that went along with having to send them to school. I don't even know what kind of mold it is..and they aren't talking...and there are so many parents just hanging there, wondering if they should be taking their kids to the doctors or not. They say right in the article that no one is complaining of any health issues..but what constitutes health issues? How many kids have asthma? Or have had pneumonia or bronchitis or any other allergic reaction that has been dismissed as something else. And how many kids behavior issues are because its how their bodies are dealing with the mold? And how do you even go about finding out if the mold is a factor or not?? It is really scary stuff. It will be interesting to see what happens...or if anything happens. Knowing Brian Rayburn, he'll find a way to cover it up and keep it hush-hush. It's a good thing my kids don't go there anymore...because this would chap my tractor-riding-arse...and the cold is doing a good enough job of that already! :-P
Homeschooling rocks, Man!